Poetic Ravings
This is my first attempt at a blog. The original idea for this blog is to publish my thoughts, ideas, writings that friends and others have passed on to me, and whatever else occurs to me.
About Me
- Name: Si-Jye
- Location: Colorado, United States
Originally from Alabama. Now transplanted at the foot of the mountains in Colorado.
Sunday, March 06, 2005
I will admit that this book is fast becoming a part of my daily rituals, wether I read the appropriate section the day of or the night before. Each day talks briefly about a Goddess and a celebration appropriate for that day. Sometimes with activities and sometimes with ideas, it encourgaes one to develop a closer relationship to the Goddess and her many faces. I'm hoping that Ms. Telesco will write a companion book titled 365 Gods.
Book of Hours: Prayers to the God by Galen Gillotte
(Companion book to Book of Hours: Prayers to the Goddess) This book can stand alone but is also wonderful when used in conjunction with its companion. This book has not been as evocative in some ways for me, but that is because the author seems to a relationship of Lover/ Companion with her understanding of the God while mine is more Father/ Sage. It is evocative in encouraging you to connect with the Sun/Son through daily prayer and meditation. I will be honest in that the words that do not comfortably resonate with me are in the Fire of the Gods section. The Common of a Man's Heart resonates to me as much as the Commons of a Woman's Heart. This one is worth looking at to make your own judgements on. I do not regret adding it or it's companion to my library.
www.llewellyn.com
www.llewellyn.com
Book of Hours: Prayers to the Goddess by Galen Gillotte
(One of the first books of pagan-themed prayers that I bought.) I actually had to have it and it's companion book (Book of Hours: Prayers to the God) specially ordered by a local bookstore. It has been wonderful companion at Sabbats and Esbats, although I do not use it consistantly for my daily devotions. The prayers are addressed to the Goddess in the forms of Maiden, Mother and Crone, although it may not be hard to alter such for your particular path. This can be a wonderful addition to your yearly rituals, wether used as a call or to evoke meditations.
www.llewellyn.com
www.llewellyn.com
A Book of Pagan Prayer by Ceisiwr Serith
(One of many purchases from Isis Books in Denver, CO.) I was hunting for some books to feed my more philisophical and contemplative moods of late. When I inquiered of the ladies at Isis for some suggestions, this book was one of several that I was directed to. Published by Weiser Books, this small leather bound volume has been a companion to my morning salutations before my day jumps-to with a bang. It's litanies and mantras can be wonderfully evocative to the state of mind. With prayers for times of the year and times in our lives, along with some of the author's own thoughts on prayer and it's "process", it has been a wonderful companion to my path.
www.isisbooks.com
www.isisbooks.com
Wicca: a Year and a Day by Timothy Roderick
This is a book that I will probably be publishing another review on in a year or so. I stumbbled across it while wandering the floors of Tattered Cover, a bookstore near Cherry Creek mall in Denver. I glanced through it's pages and knew that I had to add it to my library. There are many wonderful books out there that go into the basics of the Wiccan Path, but I had yet to find one that actually breaks into a year and a day program. Hence, my reaction to Timothy Roderick's new book. This lovely book actually guides you through a year and a day program, with stories, spells, excercises and more to guide you along. This is not just for the beginner's of this path. For those who have been practicing for years, this book can offer a refresher of familiar concepts and perhaps some new approaches. A new edition to the library that I will treasure and enjoy.
www.tatteredcover.com
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www.tatteredcover.com
www.llewellyn.com
The Elemental Mages and The Fire Rose by Mercedes Lackey
Now I know these books are not exactly in the same series, but they could be considered sister-kin. The Fire Rose was published before The Elemental Mages books were, almost like a prequel to the series. The Fire Rose take place in San Francisco during the heyday of train barons and prior to the San Francisco fire and earthquake. The Elemental Mages takes place in Victorian England during the time of the womens' rights movement in the late 1800's/ early 1900's. The basic concept is the same despite the differing locations; the idea that humans could be gifted in a way to control (or work in harmony with) the basic elements of our world, wether it be Earth, Air, Water, or Fire. On second glance you will also find splendid retellings of beloved fairytales; Beauty and the Beast (The Fire Rose), Snow White and the Seven Dwarves (The Serpent's Shadow), Sleeping Beauty (The Gates of Sleep), and Cinderella (Phoenix and Ashes, the latest realease). Ms. Lackey has taken familiar tales and revitalized them by mixing in known history and presenting us with new treats for our guilty indulgence. Recommended for history buffs and fantasy fans alike, check your local library for these modern fairytales.
Circle Round: Raising Children in Goddess Traditions by Starhawk, Diane Baker, Anne Hill
Now let me say two things first; a) I do not have children of my own at home, although I do have nieces, nephews, and 3 stepsons that live with their mother. b) I have not yet reviewed the CD that is a companion to this book, although I plan to correct that in due time. This is one of my many finds at a local library (whose new age collection is quite impressive for one used to there being a lack of books on the subject) and have since added it to my personal collection. I recommend this book for those looking for ideas on how to introduce children, young and old alike, to alternative spirituality, whether it be Wicca or another pagan path. The book is sectioned off into chapters about the life cycle, the cycles of the moon and sun, the elements, and basic ideas for bringing children into a closer understanding of this path. With it's stories, crafts, songs, and simple ritual ideas, this is good jumping off point or an addition to your family's celebrations. Even for people, such as myself, who have no children of their own or the young ones in their lives are far away, this book gives wonderful ideas to enhancing your own personal celebrations. It helps to reconnect with that beautiful childlike-wonder we once had about the world that surrounds us. Definitely put this on your gotta-read-it list.
www.circleround.com
www.circleround.com
The Guiliana Legacy by Alexis Masters
From what I've been able to tell so far, this is Ms. Masters first publication. I'm waiting impatiently for a follow-up, which is currently in the works according to her website. This book is one that has been a favorite of mine since I first read it. I originally came across this book in a local library back home when I was on the hunt for new reading material. The different themes, characters, and ideas that weave their way through the book fascinated meā¦past lives, Goddess mythology, hereditary witchcraft, psychic phenomenon, fighting against people's misconceptions, the idea of the psychic defense front in the World War (among other things). Highly intriguing to myself with some many things to catch my interest. Ms. Masters is successful in managing to keep third party perspective where others sometimes struggle against telling a story from the idea that "I" am the character.
The main character in this novel is Julia Giardani; an independent woman who finds herself forced and in some cases, dragged, toward a destiny that was not originally of her choosing. The strong secondary characters that support or hinder her are Andrei Anatolin, Madame Racine, and Gregor Danilenko. These three characters are tied to Julia by choice and by destiny. Such a mixture can combine to create hope or tragedy. I wish I could go into more details but I'm afraid that I'll give too much away with my tendency to rattle on. I do hope you'll take the time to investigate this book and find it worth adding to your library.
http://www.giulianalegacy.com/
The main character in this novel is Julia Giardani; an independent woman who finds herself forced and in some cases, dragged, toward a destiny that was not originally of her choosing. The strong secondary characters that support or hinder her are Andrei Anatolin, Madame Racine, and Gregor Danilenko. These three characters are tied to Julia by choice and by destiny. Such a mixture can combine to create hope or tragedy. I wish I could go into more details but I'm afraid that I'll give too much away with my tendency to rattle on. I do hope you'll take the time to investigate this book and find it worth adding to your library.
http://www.giulianalegacy.com/
Thoughts on "view of the life cycle"
This was inspired by a conversation between myself and a fellow kungfu student after class one night several yrs ago now. This was before I came upon the spiritual path I tread now. it's interesting the things that can be inspired by mutual and friendly back-and-forth of ideas and concepts.
Saturday, March 05, 2005
Dreams by Olive Schreiner
I have no idea how hard this book is to find now. Originally published in 1891, my father had a copy among his book collection. One of the most thought provoking and intriguing works that I've read. My personal favorite in the collection appears at the very beginning. It's an allegory featuring Life and Love and Joy and the journey that transforms all. If you're able to find a copy of this work I highly recommend it.
Cherly Watkins
A woman that had the privilege of working with in my present career. The poem I've posted by her was written as a tribute to her mother.
"My Mother My Friend" by Cheryl Watkins
Often times we forget how fast life can pass us by
We often wonder why we out grow so many things,
not understanding what they all mean
Often we look back over the good old years,
how we laughed and shared sadness and tears
You taught me life's most precious things
and how to make the best of things.
Your strength taught me very well,
keeping God first, I would never fail.
My Mother, I'm thankful for you.
You're my special gift God gave to me.
My Friend, yes, you are my bright and shining star.
My Mother, My Friend
"My Mother My Friend" by Cheryl Watkins
Often times we forget how fast life can pass us by
We often wonder why we out grow so many things,
not understanding what they all mean
Often we look back over the good old years,
how we laughed and shared sadness and tears
You taught me life's most precious things
and how to make the best of things.
Your strength taught me very well,
keeping God first, I would never fail.
My Mother, I'm thankful for you.
You're my special gift God gave to me.
My Friend, yes, you are my bright and shining star.
My Mother, My Friend
Thor Ambar
Thor Ambar is a unique and gifted man that I was once very close with. The few writings of his that I have posted were orginally work that he had given me to publish on the fledging version of Poetic Ravings. Since then I have lost contact with him and at this point am unsure of his present whereabouts.
"Hands for her" by Thor Ambar
Torn, tattered and frayed
Cut, ripped and gouged
Not that of shear apperance,
But that of which has created
Strength, dependability and toughness.
These are the hands
Carrying on as once before
Doing all that becomes,
But stopping every now and then
Trying so hard to feel something soft.
Callused from tips to heal
Worked till life lost and then
Sometimes beyond that,
Working till the life life stops dripping
Though leaving the wounds open to worsen.
A soothing touch is all hoped
For the hands have no lips to ask
And no time to dream of,
So the tortured nerves only hope
For something to sooth their pains of work.
To touch the delicate lips
And the tender face of her
Creates strong hoped,
That of which are longed for
To feel the warmth of love from her
"The First Star" by Thor Ambar
The sun rises, and the sun can fall. But, when the moon comes out, that is when you can hear the wolf call. Snow can chill a hot body, the sun can warm a heart, the rain can wash away the pain, and wind can comfort a sore body. The wolf still calls to the lonely moon in the starless sky. The call of the wild is tame as can be, being called by the wolf that stands alone on the cliff of solace. The moon looks down upon the poor lonely soul, and smiles for the poor soul gets its wish, as does the moon in its starless sky. The wolf bows its head and turns to walk away. The solace cliff cracks and gives way with the wolf still upon. The moon still smiles on as the wolf joins him in th sky. The star shines bright for there is no pain here, and the moon and the wolf are no longer lonely. Together they light the sky at night, shining their light down upon all the lonely souls, letting them know that the poor couls shall not always be alone.
Untitled work by Thor Ambar
On the day the angels gather'd 'round
was the day the angels cry'd.
There 'twas that the blood was shed
the river of tears ran red.
Not a sound was made
by the woodland creatures
gather'd b'hind the angels.
Heaven and earth colide
as night doth wit' day
here 'tis the santuary of middle earth
where dreams 'n fantasies become reality.
A cool breeze from t' gentle air
arouses the deep'st desires
for t' hearts content.
Sensuality b'comes the obsession
of the writhing, aching
yearning for more.
A burning fire rage in t' heart
flames lick t' sky,
flickering the soft clouds
wit' its warm tip.
The sun is warm,
the breeze is cool,
the moon glows,
the stars sparkle,
the angels sing,
the animals cry.
The serpents bite tis a quick sting,
its venom enters the veins,
the head b'gins to spin,
confusion enters t' mind.
T' virgin apple falls to the ground,
the bite already taken
juices flowing to t' earth.
Knowledge that should not b' known
has opened blind eyes.
The rain then comes
calming the raging fires,
soothing the rigid bodies.
The angels hath flown,
the creatures hath hid,
in t' eyes, inside t' soul,
in t' hearts, love is theirs
forever through time.
"One Day!" by Thor Ambar
A burning sensation
of a fiery depths'
endless chasm,
filled by a fathomless void
of emptiness...
of lonliness.
Too far below normality
to feel the gentle sun
to know the soothing rain,
that can quench the thirst
for that which is a dream...
the only surviving hope.
Trapped behind set bars
yearning to be free
to see all it knows,
the shining sun
the glowing moon
those of feeling and emotions.
Here's the heart of flame
set ablaze for too long
with its candle of life,
torched in the middle
melting with each passing moment
lit with the flame on both ends.
Within a single word
of emotions alive
spoken with love,
that which is barely known
in the heart's passing
through its days of despair.
Only then can this word
of gentle kindness
with true meaning,
give a desired mist
to calm the savage fires
and bring what once might have been
to a brand new life.
The silhouette of beauty.
The face of purity.
The eyes of wonder,
filled with understanding
joyously containing life
sought by the pit's heart.
The sight removes the pain
as the name calms the soul
with that soothing voice,
cherished by every moment
like a symphony's song
playing the gentle notes.
Hence forth the word be spoken
wil the flames be doused
by the cleansing rain,
longed after for so long
to relieve the pains
the suffering of the pit.
Then, and only then,
will the burning pit fill
raising the heart to the surface,
that which was only dreamed about
cherished by memories
that are haunting in the night.
This day will once come
as they are numbered
and it will pass,
but it shall never be forgotten
for all that never be forgotten
for all that it has done
will be a memory in the present
of the happiness that will live on.
"Hands for her" by Thor Ambar
Torn, tattered and frayed
Cut, ripped and gouged
Not that of shear apperance,
But that of which has created
Strength, dependability and toughness.
These are the hands
Carrying on as once before
Doing all that becomes,
But stopping every now and then
Trying so hard to feel something soft.
Callused from tips to heal
Worked till life lost and then
Sometimes beyond that,
Working till the life life stops dripping
Though leaving the wounds open to worsen.
A soothing touch is all hoped
For the hands have no lips to ask
And no time to dream of,
So the tortured nerves only hope
For something to sooth their pains of work.
To touch the delicate lips
And the tender face of her
Creates strong hoped,
That of which are longed for
To feel the warmth of love from her
"The First Star" by Thor Ambar
The sun rises, and the sun can fall. But, when the moon comes out, that is when you can hear the wolf call. Snow can chill a hot body, the sun can warm a heart, the rain can wash away the pain, and wind can comfort a sore body. The wolf still calls to the lonely moon in the starless sky. The call of the wild is tame as can be, being called by the wolf that stands alone on the cliff of solace. The moon looks down upon the poor lonely soul, and smiles for the poor soul gets its wish, as does the moon in its starless sky. The wolf bows its head and turns to walk away. The solace cliff cracks and gives way with the wolf still upon. The moon still smiles on as the wolf joins him in th sky. The star shines bright for there is no pain here, and the moon and the wolf are no longer lonely. Together they light the sky at night, shining their light down upon all the lonely souls, letting them know that the poor couls shall not always be alone.
Untitled work by Thor Ambar
On the day the angels gather'd 'round
was the day the angels cry'd.
There 'twas that the blood was shed
the river of tears ran red.
Not a sound was made
by the woodland creatures
gather'd b'hind the angels.
Heaven and earth colide
as night doth wit' day
here 'tis the santuary of middle earth
where dreams 'n fantasies become reality.
A cool breeze from t' gentle air
arouses the deep'st desires
for t' hearts content.
Sensuality b'comes the obsession
of the writhing, aching
yearning for more.
A burning fire rage in t' heart
flames lick t' sky,
flickering the soft clouds
wit' its warm tip.
The sun is warm,
the breeze is cool,
the moon glows,
the stars sparkle,
the angels sing,
the animals cry.
The serpents bite tis a quick sting,
its venom enters the veins,
the head b'gins to spin,
confusion enters t' mind.
T' virgin apple falls to the ground,
the bite already taken
juices flowing to t' earth.
Knowledge that should not b' known
has opened blind eyes.
The rain then comes
calming the raging fires,
soothing the rigid bodies.
The angels hath flown,
the creatures hath hid,
in t' eyes, inside t' soul,
in t' hearts, love is theirs
forever through time.
"One Day!" by Thor Ambar
A burning sensation
of a fiery depths'
endless chasm,
filled by a fathomless void
of emptiness...
of lonliness.
Too far below normality
to feel the gentle sun
to know the soothing rain,
that can quench the thirst
for that which is a dream...
the only surviving hope.
Trapped behind set bars
yearning to be free
to see all it knows,
the shining sun
the glowing moon
those of feeling and emotions.
Here's the heart of flame
set ablaze for too long
with its candle of life,
torched in the middle
melting with each passing moment
lit with the flame on both ends.
Within a single word
of emotions alive
spoken with love,
that which is barely known
in the heart's passing
through its days of despair.
Only then can this word
of gentle kindness
with true meaning,
give a desired mist
to calm the savage fires
and bring what once might have been
to a brand new life.
The silhouette of beauty.
The face of purity.
The eyes of wonder,
filled with understanding
joyously containing life
sought by the pit's heart.
The sight removes the pain
as the name calms the soul
with that soothing voice,
cherished by every moment
like a symphony's song
playing the gentle notes.
Hence forth the word be spoken
wil the flames be doused
by the cleansing rain,
longed after for so long
to relieve the pains
the suffering of the pit.
Then, and only then,
will the burning pit fill
raising the heart to the surface,
that which was only dreamed about
cherished by memories
that are haunting in the night.
This day will once come
as they are numbered
and it will pass,
but it shall never be forgotten
for all that never be forgotten
for all that it has done
will be a memory in the present
of the happiness that will live on.
"My view of the life cycle" by Si-Jye
I see it not as only a circle, but also a spiral. Imagine you're in a multi-floored building with a giant spiral staircase rising through the center. Each floor could almost be considered a level of existence or development. There are multiple rooms on each floor. Some beings never leave a single room. Some only see a few. Yet others leave rooms to visit far-distant others. This would give a reason...a purpose...for a single floor. But why multi-floors and why the giant staircase?
Each level represents a different level of progress and/ or existence. The usual cycle is birth-life-death and on to be reborn on the next level, if everything has progressed as it should. If not, then another lifetime is spent in that realm of existence. The spiral staircase is a mode of traveling between the realms. Each step isprogress-made. This allows one to go to another existence before their cycle is finished, or to merely visit. Now why would one want to progress to another level?
Some are happy as they are and choose to not move on. Such is their choice. Others are happy but KNOW that there is more to offer. First, you must want. Why would you want? What is there to work toward? Why the pinacle and beyond, of course...The Creative-All.
The closer we are, the better. yes, it is in the air we breathe. Yes, it is in the water we drink, Yes, it is in the earth beneath our feet. Yes it is in the fire that warms us and gives us light. yes, it is in our Gods and Goddesses. It is in us and around us and yet...we still hold ourselves somewhat apart. Perhaps it is a fear of losing the very things that make us individual. Perhaps it is an unwillingness to give up control. It is not like the Borgs of Star Trek. The closer we are, the more we become one with the All and less "self" (as in "thinking only of ourselves and not oof others"). It's more a return to the Maker for all time. It's a homecoming and not a brief visit, such as between life cycles.
Each level represents a different level of progress and/ or existence. The usual cycle is birth-life-death and on to be reborn on the next level, if everything has progressed as it should. If not, then another lifetime is spent in that realm of existence. The spiral staircase is a mode of traveling between the realms. Each step isprogress-made. This allows one to go to another existence before their cycle is finished, or to merely visit. Now why would one want to progress to another level?
Some are happy as they are and choose to not move on. Such is their choice. Others are happy but KNOW that there is more to offer. First, you must want. Why would you want? What is there to work toward? Why the pinacle and beyond, of course...The Creative-All.
The closer we are, the better. yes, it is in the air we breathe. Yes, it is in the water we drink, Yes, it is in the earth beneath our feet. Yes it is in the fire that warms us and gives us light. yes, it is in our Gods and Goddesses. It is in us and around us and yet...we still hold ourselves somewhat apart. Perhaps it is a fear of losing the very things that make us individual. Perhaps it is an unwillingness to give up control. It is not like the Borgs of Star Trek. The closer we are, the more we become one with the All and less "self" (as in "thinking only of ourselves and not oof others"). It's more a return to the Maker for all time. It's a homecoming and not a brief visit, such as between life cycles.
Thoughts on Untitled Work #2
A second one that I don't remember the time or place that brought it on. This brings to mind a rage beyond sadness and the idea of walling off emotions to allow nothing to touch the heart anymore.
Untitled work #2 by Si-Jye
My heart is a stone, lying coldly within my breast. It beats not, unmoving despite the rain of tears. Frozen, still, unmoving. It breaks no more for it is a hard diamond. It is dull like granite and cares not for simple emotion.
Thoughts on Untitled Work #1
This I wrote several years ago. I don't even remember what was happening at that time to cause this to flow through my fingers and onto paper. Reading it again evokes emotions now that are sometimes uncomfortable and saddening but still speak to me and of me. Reading it now brings memories of people that I have lost or who have volutarily left me. Not the most comfortable thoughts to have.
Untitled work #1 by Si-Jye
Alone in the darkness
Trying to hold together a shattered heart
I'm drowning in a sea aof pain
Vague shadows haunts me
Their touches seem loving but instead are cruel
Scattering my feelings
My soul is tear blinded
A light and warmth strive to touch it
A hand reaches out...retrieves the pieces
of my broken heart
A song of love and I see the dawn
Trying to hold together a shattered heart
I'm drowning in a sea aof pain
Vague shadows haunts me
Their touches seem loving but instead are cruel
Scattering my feelings
My soul is tear blinded
A light and warmth strive to touch it
A hand reaches out...retrieves the pieces
of my broken heart
A song of love and I see the dawn
"Rain" by Si-Jye
Water, H20, simple substance. It's kiss is gently welcoming. It's perfume hinted on the breeze. The earth spreads arms wide open to recieve it's nourishment. It flows down my head and over my arms, gentle and caressing. it's touch is as soft as a first-time lover.
"My.." by Si-Jye
My eyes see with compassion.
My ears listen with open-heartedness.
My touch is of peace.
My arms open to embrace brotherhood.
My voice speaks of healing.
My tears fall for the suffering.
My sleeping mind dreams of endless possibilities.
My waking mind adapts to reality.
My spirit soars,
while my feet stay rooted in the earth.
My ears listen with open-heartedness.
My touch is of peace.
My arms open to embrace brotherhood.
My voice speaks of healing.
My tears fall for the suffering.
My sleeping mind dreams of endless possibilities.
My waking mind adapts to reality.
My spirit soars,
while my feet stay rooted in the earth.
"I am..." by Si-Jye
I am the willow tree, supple and strong.
I am the water, ever-flowing and never changeing.
I am the earth; my memory is long and I am a giver of life.
I am the wind; I lift the spirit and erase the past.
I am the sun; My anger is harsh and fierce but..
I balance it with my warming love.
I am the moon, bringing light to a world of darkness.
I am the water, ever-flowing and never changeing.
I am the earth; my memory is long and I am a giver of life.
I am the wind; I lift the spirit and erase the past.
I am the sun; My anger is harsh and fierce but..
I balance it with my warming love.
I am the moon, bringing light to a world of darkness.
